Waking up to the waiting game
I've been playing
For seconds upon seconds
Drawn out.
Waking up
To sweet disappointments
A disease with one remedy

I dance away my attachment
Attachment to sorrow
Attachment to misunderstanding.

Instead I can laugh
And dance
Dance 'til I sweat
Dance till I laugh
Dance 'til the room smells of love
And water
And the basslines are left
Throbbing through my veins

And when that bittersweet disappointment settles back
On my shoulders
Drooping me down to the flat
Blank
Dreary
Computer screen
I can listen to the laughter
The birthday wishes
The terrible singing
Happy sixteenth, lady
Thanks for the cupcakes
Thanks for the freezing cold
Of our laughter
As we shove snow down our shirts
And frolick
Like rabbits

And the music continues to pump.

I Am Not Afraid Human Being

I am not a frayed human
Being
Not a shamed human
Being
I am a being human
Being
What I am
What I want to be
What I reflect from the world
Being
Around me.

I am not afraid
Human being
I am not ashamed
Human being
I can say
With no look of guilt
With no twitch
Of embarrassment
That I am human
That I have a body
That I have wants
Needs
Desires
Of food
Of drink
Of flesh
Earthy pleasurable desires
We all have them.

Why deny that we all desire something fleshy?
The ability to show our own flesh
Touch that of another
Human being.
The ability to run
Naked
Vulnerable
Pure
Through the forests
And streets
Of our towns
And not be insecure
Only fragile
As all life is fragile.

Who are we to deny ourselves the pleasures of being flesh?
Who are we to deny ourselves the pleasures of another's flesh?
Who are we to deny
Anything?
Human
Beings
Being
Human
Flesh
In
Love
And passion and fire and desire
And sighs and sweet wells of love
Things that spring up
From that vulnerable
Sacred
Place.
The one that only comes out
When we are naked
And sacred
And together.

So why deny it?
We all have bodies
After all
Human
Being
Bodies.
Of flesh
Passionate
Deep
Skin
With bones
And muscles
And tendons
So easy to touch
Stroke
Look at
With eyes that roam
Across the beauty of human
Beings
Being
Human
In the purest form.

So.
I am not afraid
Frayed human being
I am not ashamed
Shamed human being
I am being
Human.